When the worst happens...

Today I experienced what every breeder is worried about and fear. Nada was alone in the puppyroom when I was getting dressed and ready this morning and at some point she had gotten up and laid down again and unfortunaely laid on top of Mr Lightblue. When I discovered this it was already too late to save his life. Despite this I tried for a long time with CPR hoping I would be able to bring him back but I couldn't.
This is the exact reason to why I sleep in the puppyroom for at least three weeks, why I am in there almost 24/7 or make someone else watch them for me if I need to go out for arrends or such. But sometimes I have to leave the room and today that was the wrong decision. 
I know this happens to breeders but for me and 15 years breeding this is the first time a loose a puppy in this awful way.
He was so beautiful, so strong. I would have loved to have seen him grow up, be loved by a family. Now he never will and it breaks my heart. It will take time to get over this, if I ever will.
It has been a lesson learned the hard way. No matter for how long you been doing this, or how good the bitch is with her puppies, things like this can happen. I will most likely double and triple check and count puppies now everytime the bitch changes position in the puppybox. I don't ever want to experience this again.

Rest in peace my love, your will never be forgotten.